Underwater Melody

Sick of the emotion All these days that have gone by, I'm going through the motions Hoping I control all the motions that I make Drowning in a lake of my deepest inhibitions I know I've been swimming, I know I've been swimming But I never listen Now I know that my life is just beginning No reason to believe that I stay by my decisions All the pain I've been keeping in, you treat it like a joke Another love letter burned to ashes in the boat I can barely stay afloat, I can barely stay afloat If you felt the way I felt, then I guarantee you choke I've been down bad lately Lately, I've been broken Another night, wasted Wasted from emotion Wasted Wasted Do I decide the way I live my life? Then why do I want to die, contemplating suicide? Screaming deeper inside of me, honestly Take it all, take it all, take it all the things you want My back's against the wall Now why you so appalled? Missing all these calls From my mother and my sister, I don't want to talk And I know it's all my fault Man, I know it's all my fault Burdens on my shoulders make it hard for me to walk Constant repetivity Is my life what I want? It's tearing me apart, can't remember what I'm taught All these feelings I've been dealing with is building up a wall I can feel it My heart is caving in These sacrifices that I'm making, I can't make amends And I'll tell you that I'm happy but it's just pretend And I'll take it all for granted, waiting for the end I'm sick So sick of the emotion