I took the beat

Slowed it down

If I blow off this shit you gon hear me now

Rolling loud

Only the smoke can control me now

Blowing clouds

Every inhale gotta story now

Thinking back to the days on my back when I didn't have nothing

I'm working hard turning nothing to something

All my family looked at me like I'm bluffing

Had to prove to everybody I ain't roughing

Eyes was filled with water, nose was hella stuffy

It was fucking hard, I can't cap for nothing

When that doubt filled my mind, I fell out of my prime

Couldnt stay down forever, I'm fucking bugging

What the fuck is you doing, just keep on thuggin

It's gon get a lil better, get though the rubbish

Then my mom got that call from the hospital late at night

Saying that daddy just kicked the bucket

I started feeling like fuck it

What the fuck is the point, **** fuck this

Everybody around me got hurt in my path as I'm walking the way of destruction

And my vision got hella obstructed

My priorities full of some fuck shit

All this time I felt like that I wanted to die

That depression shit nothing to fuck with

Ain't nobody I wanted to fuck with

I was feeling like nothing to fuck with

Then I hopped in the stu, took a beat, made a verse

I was feeling like y'all finna love this

I can't make this shit up, I was trapping hard

Way too hard

Got too happy lost some playing cards

Won some games, and some games I lost

I was young, wasn't moving smart

Losing heart

Nowadays I stay A and R

Always ready keep the blicky steady for them demons if I'm in or out my car

I can't trust I stay safe in this mothafucka

He protected my name in this mothafucka

Now he gone, I'm the one in this mothafucka

Stepping up to the plate in this mothafucka

I can't have no debate in this mothafucka

Do I have what it takes in this mothafucka

To rise up to the plate in this mothafucka

Time to put a new face on this mothafucka

Do you know what it means

To get so close to yo dream

Robbed from you altogether

Lost to life like you let em

And ain't no chance to get better

Silent voices trying harder to scream

Always imagined the scene

Never imagined that I would be left with degrees

It's time to blow a lil steam

I'll be cracking up the heat

Because I get back to it

I'm back to flip

The pack, make a rack, cause I gotta keep stacking it

I'm macking it

Bills don't stop, **** gotta stay on top before his family is packing shit

I hacked for this

My mama pray every day that her son staying safe while he out trapping shit

Thank you mama I'll be coming home, I know you got my back and shit

Hope you know that I'm sorry

To my lady, the way I've been acting lately

Keeping you in the dark

It's been hard, I been running from it baby

Thank you for keeping my heart

You don't know it but you was the one to save me baby stay where you are

I felt like I was just falling apart

And my brothers told me to keep it together

No matter the weather

A **** feeling like I could fall apart just by touching a feather

And everybody on my dick, it wasn't making it better

Even waking up nowadays start to feel like a set up

I really thought I was ready

This shit is too fucking heavy

As much as I wanna give in, a **** keeping his head up

I gotta

Keep a smile while I'm stacking my bread up

Because a **** never dies if you really don't let em

Yea I gotta smoke

I drop a tear with each toke

I'm puffing one for all the bros I can't smoke with no mo

Know that you been here before

Know you feel the pain

Step right in my lane

This is all I know

I'm still on the road

Rolling up the dope

I gotta rap this shit out, I got too much in the dome

Ain't got nothing to say to you mothafuckas

I don't wanna complain in this mothafucka

Everybody else got they own fucking problems

Trynna finish they plate in this mothafucka

Tell me can you relate to this mothafucka

Full of anger and hate in this mothafucka

Wishing that you could end it all

But if you did then you couldn't keep stunting on mothafuckas

I just gotta stay running and keep my head up

All this shit gonna get to me if I let em

Trynna keep my boat cruising in heavy oceans

If I let too much water in, no more floatin

When shit happen, the second hand keep on goin

Time ain't stopping for nobody and you know it

Shoulda listened to mama

When she told me growing up woulda been harder than I'd notice