I tore the sequins off your dress in your living room when I was bored

You didn't notice you were focused on yourself and I was not important

As I strained beneath the weight of panicked months i couldn't help

Feeling distracted

I never told you but I always held my breath when you were lying on my chest

I wouldn't dare move out of fear I'd wake you up

It didn't matter if I slept

Just a goose down surrogate

I asked you if you wanted me to stay the night and then you got undressed

The ceiling spun, "out of the vein" finished playing through

I sang it as you slept

For a moment I considered standing up and walking out to see if you reacted

So i suffered over night

Cursed the covers every time

After all you were sleeping by yourself, mmhm

Sleeping by yourself, mmhm

Sleeping by yourself, mmhm

Sleeping by yourself, mmhm