In a Mess

Boxes filled with broken memories

And everything you own

Pulled back your hand

Please don't leave me alone

Don't remember where it started but this is the end of the line

Quickly wiped a tear and pretended it's fine

But your words can't be undone

Just like the knots you tied inside my stomach

Stood on the doorstep

Before you left

I can still feel it in my chest

When you shattered it as I tried my best

Not to let you walk out

Knowing it would leave me in a mess

The last words hurt

But I preferred it to the silence

Left unbroken

Since all the screaming and the violence

No right no wrong

Just falsely accusing

Yet somehow it felt like I was losing

And your words I can't forget

Just like the nights I wasted crying myself to bed

After you left

I can still feel it in my chest

When you shattered it as I tried my best

Not to let you walk out

Knowing it would leave me in a mess

The last touch hurt

I wish it wasn't quite so violent

But the thought of you leaving kept me silently believing

You weren't emotionally and physically abusing me

Yet somehow it felt like I was losing you

The memories will never leave

Just like the scars beneath my sleeves

Lonely and depressed

Since you left

I've numbed the feeling in my chest

To fix what you broke and fake indifference

I've tried to tell myself it's for the best

But I'm in a mess