Who I Am

You know that I was hurting and not knowing where to turn

I was stuck in a lie and found it out all too late

Found comfort in shadows

Cast by wretched and disturbed

Saw hatred where none existed

How the fuck could I be so blind

This is a declaration

Of my intent to change

I've had the revelation

Now I'm turning the page

Will I ever come to terms

With the boy I used to be

Fell into to a bitter state

I lost sight of who I am

Cause I thought that I was past repair

Took everything to show me

This is all just temporary

Now finding who I am

It's so sad

Knowing that I wasted so much time

Taking as gospel

The words and opinions of a pack of charlatans

I'd like to say I was corrupted

But my actions were my own

Even still I'm not the only one

To choke in the face of the unknown

Will I ever come to terms

With the boy I used to be

Fell into a bitter state

I lost sight of who I am

Cause I thought that I was past repair

Took everything to show me

This is all just temporary

Now finding who I am

All those hopeless nights I spent

Dejected

Wishing I was dead

Labelled a degenerate

By people I called friends

But now I'm living day by day

And using all the heart I've found

I'm bitter but I'll turn away

From everything that dragged me down

Degenerate

Can't have taken much to see

That I was poisoning the well

And when I became what I hated most

I was too far-gone to tell

Will I ever come to terms

With the boy I used to be

Fell into a bitter state

I lost sight of who I am

Cause I thought that I was past repair

Took everything to show me

This is all just temporary

Now finding who I am

I now know that I'm not past repair

And I know I don't need saving

Now I'm finding who I am