Waltz #3

What if I wanted to change Do you think I could be saved What if I don't hesitate Could I restart Start today What have I done to my brain What was I hoping to gain What if it seems I prefer the pain Of self sabotage where I often feel safe What makes me follow this chase And when will I call it a day What will they say when it all goes my way If I could put it all back in place I have a feeble soul so I like to keep it home I don't know if I can leave it alone But I'll try What if I started to pray Would they let me through the gates Would I be redeemed for my repeat mistakes And how long is that gonna take Why don't I want to escape When freedom's just twelve steps away If I gave my all is that all it would take Could I be retrained to behave I have a feeble soul so I like to keep it home I don't know if I can leave it alone But I'll try I just want to jump out of my skin My vices are wearing me thin I know that I don't want to give in But I might