Air

Maybe I’m scared

But what if I’m honest

That I’m battered and bloody from nights spent thinking of you

Maybe I’m drunk

Too drunk for this party

As I dodge all the calls cause I just wanna stay inside

So what if I’m high

Backing away to stay away from a breakdown

At 25

Maybe I’m shy

Or narcissistic

But I’m so far behind of whatever I wanted to find

Stop I can’t breathe with you here

Don’t leave me gasping for air

Maybe I’m fine

Just overreacting

But I’m drunk on a Tuesday at Myrtle and Marcy cafe

Look at your feed

So put together

And I paint a new picture of me where I’m happy for you

Maybe it’s me

Cause I get sad and so sentimental

On rainy nights

Maybe it’s time

Blur all the borders

And the distance I had to protect me from someone like you

Stop I can’t breathe with you here

Don’t leave me gasping for air

Is this it?

Will I ever be happy

As I live for the moment but can’t seem to find the time

Am I just sick?

Everything’s blurry

You ask me “what’s wrong, cause I’ve never seen you this way”

You’re so plain

You just can’t stop and start to get me

It’s not you

Maybe my thoughts

Are lost in the garden

But the flowers don’t bloom drowning in someone’s perfume