internalized lies (feat. Jackson Ludlow)

I've always had so much trust in my gut

In my ability

To read the room around me

You think I'd stop myself from making dumb mistakes but

That's not the case clearly

Cause in hindsight this never shoulda happened

In hindsight I shoulda seen the signs

And now I'm crying about you

But I guess it's not about you

It's these stupid internalized lies

So I guess the question in my head is:

Does the good outweigh the bad?

Did I learn more than I lost

Or did I end up way more sad

Cause in hindsight this never should have happened

In hindsight I shoulda seen the signs

And now I'm crying about you

But I guess it's not about you

It's these stupid internalized lies

Why, oh why, did I go this route?

I betrayed myself

Why, oh why, did I go this route?

I betrayed myself

Cause in hindsight this never should have happened

In hindsight I shoulda seen the signs

And now I'm crying about you

But I guess it's not about you

It's these stupid

Internalized lies

Internalized lies