I'll Keep Showing Up

Accept what you can’t change

Something that I learned from AA

It’s the kinda church

That I relate to these days

You can’t speed your grief up or slow it down

Just need to sit in the mess and someday you’ll figure it out

Wake up, a head full of shame

Regret and guilt is my middle name

It’s the kind of hurt, where the meds don’t seem to work

To mask the pain

I keep showin' up, showin' up

Tryna find a way to heal

I keep showin' up, showin' up

Tryna find a way to heal

And in the silence

Make sense of how I feel

Seeing life in shades of grey

It's hard to see things just one way

Pull the curtain back

It's not all white, it's not all black

Patterns repeat, inflict the hurt

Reverse the damage done by your family's curse, oh

I keep showin' up, showin' up

Tryna to find a way to heal

I keep showin' up, showin' up

Tryna find a way to heal

And in the silence

Make sense of how I feel

I’m not givin' up, givin' up

I’m not givin' up, givin' up

I’m not givin' up, givin' up

I’m growin' up, my youth is gone

Findin' reasons to carry on

Shadows that were holdin' me

They won’t become my destiny