Broke (feat. Alan Watts)

(Alan Watts on 'Love')

Yeah, I'm broke,

But this got me broken.

I love you too

If I'm just being open.

To tell the truth,

Those are words,

That're felt, not chosen.

Calls have all been close,

But never ended up

Closing.

Slightly confused,

On where I was goin'.

I think you were too.

You just didn't know it.

We just knew,

We were two,

With ambition

Focused,

On a mission,

That as kids,

We just didn't grow with.

Sittin' here thinkin'.

At two in the morning.

Think you sent me a text.

Just some tears pouring

On my glasses

From my tired eyes

That I shouldn't be ignoring.

Instead,

You can catch me scrollin'.

Remember New Orleans?

You looked fuckin' gorgeous.

Sippin' coffee,

Eatin' pizza,

Even shuckin' oysters.

It was quite a surprise

When you booked the flights.

What an experience.

I really enjoyed it.

Six months later,

Yeah, we got a space.

But we went from place to place.

No mistake.

From The Domain cheap dates,

Sloane Street cheese plates,

Weddings, big stage.

Please don't erase.

Please, babe.

All the times spent together on replay.

Up and down, round and round,

Rode a couple waves.

But it's not the great moments

That make us... great.

Yeah.

I'll admit.

I was trippin'

When you got Russell.

Thoughts were gettin' cold,

Everything uncovered.

Mind was everywhere.

Somethin' that I've had enough of.

So I moved a way,

But not 'cause I was runnin' from 'em.

I had to get right.

Battlin' a couple demons.

Weighin' heavy on my shoulders,

But you couldn't see 'em.

Droppin' songs like 'I'

Tryna be the man,

Not the boy,

You desired,

Back in 2019,

Even though we took some trips,

I was trippin' day and night.

While you were full of love,

I was empty livin' lies.

I was on and off.

Then you became my light.

I was diggin' deep.

Findin' diamonds in my mind.

Smokin' weed.

Just to process what's inside

Like...

"Is this gonna be the girl that I make my wife?"

Time to decide.

But I'm late per usual.

I wanna make up

Because your soul is beautiful.

Lovesacs, sweatpants,

Shih tzus, food to go.

If you leave, I'll have nowhere.

'Cause you the home.

(Go. If you leave, I'll have nowhere)

'Cause you the home.

(Go. If you leave, I'll have nowhere)

It's 'cause I'm broke.

(Go. If you leave, I'll have nowhere)

I've finally healed.

(Go. If you leave, I'll have nowhere)

Now it's time to grow.

Yeah.

I'm to the point

That I can't even talk.

My eyes in a daze,

That I barely can walk.

I've made myself sick,

Runny nose and a cough.

Ask me "What has worth?"

I'll say, "Nothing at all."

I wish you would call.

I wish you would text.

Still confused as to why,

You want me as an ex.

I just wanna be,

Together,

In a place,

Where we can see,

Each other,

Everyday,

Catchin' z's,

Cuddled up,

In such a way,

Saying "Ily,"

'cause we don't,

Have time to waste.

We abbreviate.

Idk what else to say.

I give up.

Lol. Jk, jk.

'Cause if you know,

(you know)

Iy - kyk.

Xoxo.

I hope you feel the same.

(Go. If you leave, I'll have nowhere)

(Xoxo)

(Go. If you leave, I'll have nowhere)

I just hope you feel the same.

(Go. If you leave, I'll have nowhere)

(Xoxo)

(Go. If you leave, I'll have nowhere)

But I know you feel the same.

(Xoxo)

Yeah.

(Xoxo)

I love you.

(Xoxo)

(Xoxo)

(Alan Watts on 'Love')