Big Time

I just can't

I can't

I can’t stop thinking, you know

I’ve held on to so much for so damn long

I just want some peace

I just want some peace

Thats all, just a lil

But all this pain inside me, can’t ignore it anymore

I’ve been dealin’ with it silently, it's eatin’ at my core

And most can see me up, but never seen me on the floor

And I used to doubt myself, but not anymore

Big time livin’ what I’m dreamin bout

Conquered all my demons, they all sleepin’ now

And shout out to my day ones, cuz they still be round

We stuck with each other through the ringer till we made it out

I’m still with my brothers on this paper route

And lord we finally winnin’ please don’t take me now

And I been through the ringer life can't shake me down

Took a lil while to paint the picture that I’m paintin’ now

And I been runnin’ from my pain, its right behind me

I’ll never dodge it, ‘cuz the scars always remind me

If I embrace it, then my pain cannot define me

If you lookin’ for, who i was, you won't find me, nah

I been changin’ everyday

I was stuck up in my ways

Took a little time to balance

All the thoughts up in my brain

Working for my future

I got no more time to waste

And I’m tryna build something when I die my kids can take

So big time livin what I’m dreamin’ ‘bout

I conquered all my demons they all sleepin’ now

And I been through too much to let life break me now

You can place that weight up on my shoulders it won’t take me down

But all this pain inside me, can’t ignore it anymore

I’ve been dealin’ with it silently, it's eatin’ at my core

And most can see me up, but never seen me on the floor

And I used to doubt myself, but not anymore

Big time livin what I’m dreamin bout

Conquered all my demons, they all sleepin’ now

And shout out to my day ones, cuz they still be round

We stuck with each other through the ringer till we made it out

And we gon’ keep on goin’ this is all we know

We clocked a couple miles, but we got more to go

And nah this ain’t been easy, been a rocky road

I could never trade it up for nothing, this is what I chose

So I’mma let ‘em know, all the pain I let it go

And all the scars I used to hide, I’m bout to let ‘em show

And I ain’t worried bout who love me, got my fam for that

And if they ever need me know I’m gon’ be there in a flash

Yeah it's been a long time comin’

Haters said I would be nothing

But I know I’m here for something

So I’m on my way

And I could never be anything besides me

I know being real is free

So all I gotta say is

Is all this pain inside me, can’t ignore it anymore

I’ve been dealin’ with it silently, it's eatin’ at my core

And most can see me up, but never seen me on the floor

And I used to doubt myself, but not anymore

Big time livin what I’m dreamin bout

Conquered all my demons, they all sleepin’ now

And shout out to my day ones, cuz they still be round

We stuck with each other through the ringer till we made it out