Ready (Or Not)

Not ready to jump, not ready to fall off

Stop pushing away, I was ready and open

I got one last push on, before you put me to bed

Not ready to run, got no home to run from

I got my own way, the way was totally wrong

On the train they're starting to stare

Sympathy or remonstration glares

We were a team supposed to fight through the worst

But you had to win yourself over first

Please don't blame me, please don't put me to sleep

Please unchain me, please don't let me release

Please don't hate me

No, please don't think I've deceived

Oh don't hate me

No don't think I've deceived or done wrong

I've been but I'm not

Ready to jump can't let go, won't follow

I'm half holding off, clinging to any "on"

Home has no more, to answer for

Home-less hope- is still hope