Waters

I can't sleep When I'm all alone 'Cause I hear a shriek That holds like a drone It's a constant hum Piercing through my eardrum And it's all because of you And often in the middle of the night I find myself unable to close my eyes You filled an ocean of guilt and pride Just to leave me there to drown I try my best to rationalize So I treat my self-destruction as an oversight Spent a month looking for comfort In fake stimuli that never worked Found myself punching mirrors I couldn't bare to see my reflection You made me jump You made me jump In the waters When I didn't know how to swim Oh I'm drowning, oh I'm drowning And the seaweeds are entwined around my ankles I can't feel my feet I can still feel the taste I can still feel the smell of your waters Deep down in my mouth It comes back and it fucks me up I cut my cheeks to turn them into gills But nothing works Nothing ever works That's what they told me Nothing ever works Nothing ever works Nothing ever works Nothing ever works Nothing ever works Nothing ever works Nothing ever works Nothing ever works And it never ever heals The wounds will stay with me I wish you knew that it hurts I wish you felt a quarter of what I feel I want you to face it Face your work Face your lust Face your waters Face your work And sometimes live a lyric will pop to my head And I pray to God to never sing it again