Kas



When you hear this verse,

I bet you'll, probably curse me

Howd I hurt the one whose been

Apart of this journey

You told me it don't feel the same no more

That one burnt me

I agreed to separate

my stomachs tossing n turning

Tried to close off my emotions

But I am the one whose hurting

I have many problems

Manipulations my biggest one

Im supposed to make you feel comforted like the morning sun

Instead you feel not wanted now you're on the run

Look, I'm sorry I'm not perfect But sometimes thats what I'm searchin for

I'm sorry for me bein so selfish, youre probably hurtin more

I'm use to bein selfless n neglectin myself

So when Im focusin on me

I think fuck everything else

I grew up toxic..

If there's no pain then I question the love

N when I feel the pain I'm on the quest for drugs

Im stuck in a cycle of hurt

Use to wanna kill myself

cuz you can't feel in the dirt

When you loved the right way It's kinna hard to accept it

Overthinking your intentions n find ways to reject it

Now I'm just another ****, what I did was expected

Now you just another body on my checklist

Thats fucked up

You say I have no feelins

I was crying while I wrote this

Bottle my emotions so the public won't notice

But

when I'm all alone it's like a **** can't focus

Instead of smokin, I'm just basking in the moment

Im just sayin that

I'm lost baby

Lost

I'm at an intersection n I do not know which way I wanna cross baby

Cross

N when we seperated i could feel it in my chest that was my loss baby

I think we all crazy

It's my fault

My heart doin somersaults baby

Good at masking my emotions & rejecting all my feelings & pretendin that my heart is Jack Frost baby

.. Cold