After Party

Party like a rockstar, in the end I see no change

I don't wanna hold your time up, you don't wanna see my face

How the fuck I make it this far, why I'm the only one you blame

They never call, I be down low, you don't wanna see my face

I try so hard to block it, you know my story, I ain't have shit in my pocket

Slept inside the car with pots inside my hand and people watchin

Foster care done did me bad, but I ain't mad, it's just a process

Tell them people cut my check to keep me silent

Drugs, I can't function without it

I step out, load a clip, I be wildin

If you ain't for me, get the fuck from around me

Know I ain't goin' if I know that it's crowded

I be paranoid

Tryna put her on to make some money like what you waiting for

All this shit I'm talkin' is far from cheap, I'm really from the north

I done cut some people from this shit, I really need a hug

I really need some time, I really need some love

Mainstream is all fame, I remember I ain't had no diamonds in my damn chain

They ain't even see me comin' I done switched lanes

I'm knowin' that I'm far from perfect, I just maintain

No I just party like a rockstar, in the end I see no change

I don't wanna hold your time up

You don't wanna see my face

How the fuck I make it this far

Why I'm the only one you blame

They never call, I be down low

Why they only show me hate

I feel she wanna do better, so I'ma let her go

I'm feelin' my body with this shit, I say it help me cope

Know I'm still fightin' all these demons, it's a lonely road

And I'm still lookin' for some love, I put it in every song

You know this shit, I'm on, take it all, don't overdose

Tell my moms I'm comin' home, feel like all I do is wrong

Scared that she might leave me alone, find out that she with another ****

That shit'll break my soul, takin' all my feelings to my grave

And pray I'm alone

No I just party like a rockstar, in the end I see no change

I don't wanna hold your time up

You don't wanna see my face

How the fuck I make it this far

Why I'm the only one you blame

They never call, I be down low

Why they only show me hate