Yeah

All the shit I did for you and you never gave me a thank you

Dealing with relationship issues that could've sank you

All the shit that we've been through and I never tried to go blame you

Acting like my pet but I never tried to go tame you

All the shit that we've been through and you acting like you ain't grateful

Shit getting chaotic but actin like we been stable

All the stories that you tell me just a fable

A make believe bullshit lie that you enable to use against me

But I just can't believe it's really you against me

Quit actin so defensive, you think protect me?

Quit actin like you meant it, you think you respect me?

I know it all depends on what you getting from it

Expecting me to know how you feel, you ain't said nothing

The times that I was going through it you ain't said nothing

You ain't say nothing

In a constant state of feeling grateful then jealous

Went from thankful to envious, questioning whether or not it's worth it

I try to be a good person, my mental worsen

I don't believe to be receiving what I deserve

I see them speak but not a verb

Right and wrong

I wanna light the crowd up with song

But I get the feeling in my soul if I we're to reap what I sow, then I'd be satisfied

Instead I fantasize what's it's like

To see a line outside the show for me

I wonder would you go for me, only hoping to see roses thrown at my feet

Encore what they screaming, just then I woke up from a dream

I don't know what to be telling myself

Stand up, do I man up, do I speak up, do I sit down?

A hole grows in my soul, feels when I fight back I'm beat down

Tryna swim in the deep end

In the deep end see me drown

My heart stop, eyes open, no breathing

When I'm hopeless I go think bouta the bad times

Tears fall as a pass time activity it was the remedy telling me everything better be dead

Everyone telling me to be a better is the epitome of a mistake

Was it really me? All the real in me?

I'm conflicted to this today

Memories of my worst moments startna feel like yesterday

Repenting for my actions react with I'll be my best today

I'm ready to confront the world, regardless what they gotta say

Cuz I know me and ain't no i team

But there an m e, I got me yeah

Living on the edge of sanity

In a crazy world

I'm unsure if you would stand with me

Cuz I've been through the worst

I thought we said we'd do better, I guess we missed the memo

The way that we been actin it feel like we in a demo

Well aware I got my moments where I lack consideration

I don't mean to test your patience, or break you down

Sometimes I hide in isolation, im running out

I could be quick to point the finger but I'll carry all the blame

These decisions that I make don't take the time for em

I know I bring you pain

And I don't mean to push away

I wanna hide my face

But still I make the same mistakes, I see it day to day

But still I'm in the frame

Hard to embrace the change

All the moments that I struggle cuz I'm in my way (Fuck)

I wanna hide my face

But still I make the same mistakes, I see it day to day

But still I'm in the frame

Hard to embrace the change

All the moments that I struggle cuz I'm in my way

In my way, in my way, in my way

Living on the edge of sanity

In a crazy world

I'm unsure if you would stand with me

Cuz I've been through the worst

This next verse was recorded 241 days later

Okay times passes, I try to capture the moment

I know there's no right, wrong fashion when passionate

Only if you let yourself down and do not get back up lil homie

I was with those greyhounds, react like they actually owe me

Took me a dark place, where comfort became an enigma

Pulling me in all ways, far from what gave me a signal

I notice a heartache plague, my thoughts turning bitter

Trying not to rot away, I fought against

All of it mental

Battling with god

Rattling my faith

Leaving me in awe

Know that snakes

Tend to get involved, whispering away

Till they fall

Chemicals and all

Play a coup d'etat on your brain

Getting through the fog, you might not be the same (might not be the same)

Cuz I know me and ain't no I in team

But there's an m e, I got me yeah

Living on the edge of sanity

In a crazy world

I'm unsure if you would stand with me

Cuz I've been through the worst

Yeah yeah

Taking me outta of my element

Stay with the elegance

Play in a room with the elephant

I never been one to headache it

Where is your evidence

Why is you worried bout etiquette

I been ahead of it