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I've never been confident Never wanted to take my shirt off in front of girls And it's probably something that I have learned Need to come to terms and be honest with But I'm too scared of what people might say I'm afraid of everyone judging me Once they observe what I preserve, and stop loving me 'Cause that shit hurts, I did it first, and it's cutting me Deeper than a knife ever could I'm no good Give me strength I've cried too many times here in the quiet In my bed I hate myself, but I do it in private I'm so scared I just can't have you anywhere near me 'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me? I think I owe an apology To the kid I was when I was young, 'cause I promised him That I'll figure all this out by the time that he'd gotten here But that was a lie, and I am still ashamed 'Cause I'm to blame, ooh (Ooh-ooh-ooh) The war that I'm fighting is fought by a person I can't see (Ooh-ooh-ooh) And lately, I'm hiding, all 'cause of me Give me strength I've cried too many times here in the quiet In my bed I hate myself, but I do it in private I'm so scared I just can't have you anywhere near me 'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me? Lost my head I'm not too proud of the way that I'm hiding Eyes are red Been months since I caught myself smiling I'm so scared I just can't have you anywhere near me 'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me? Give me strength I've cried too many times here in the quiet In my bed I hate myself, but I do it in private I'm so scared I just can't have you anywhere near me 'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me?