high tides, low tides.

Floating on the surface Appearing like i got it Had it all under control But drownin' in the waves I wanna scream to stop it Rather i just swallowed it whole My body was folded in half Sobs erupted all night, all night The depth of my being Admitted the truth deep inside, inside Paralysed by Every little thing they decide Why's this on my mind, mind Won't know what I'm thinkin' At least my feelings can be defined Things are wonderful Wonderful til they're not Hard to own what i don't choose What i don't choose Life's like tryin' to talk a Grenade out of explodin' Headin' out to battle to lose But don't get me wrong I'm grateful for all of the things That has happened to me, to me The moment you see smoke Yea you know that its too late to flea Paralysed by Every little thing they decide Why's this on my mind, mind Won't know what I'm thinkin' But i still feel my chest beatin' in these High tides, low tides Emotions that i just can't describe Impossible to hide, hide Can't tell what I'm thinkin' But at least I'm so done from hidin' now There's a lot of conversations here That i don't want to have But i know that I'm attached I can't, i can't turn back There's a lot of conversations here That never meant to have I'd put them in my bag Even if i tell them They won't understand No, they won't understand Even if i explain They'll just misunderstand, misunderstand This is why so long I've been quiet I found peace, protect my tide