I look at you
You look through me
Am I invisible?
A ghost at your party
A joke I don't get
Isn't the punchline obvious?
And it's funny how it ends
A million times in my mind
Just to start again
Want so badly to forgive
I wanna let you in
How many times can you break my heart?
Fill in the cracks with gold
'Til it all falls apart
Is there beauty in the pain?
In the fractures that remain
So you got the best of me
Like I knew that you would
Cause I'd do anything
That you asked
It's no selfless act
You know I love a reason
To lose out on sleep
And it's funny we pretend
That there's something to learn
In any of this
Want so badly to believe
That it hurts for a reason but I'll never see
How many times can you tear me apart
Before I grow a spine
Or collapse in your arms?
How many more first starts?
Tell me how many times
Tell me how many times
Tell me how many times
Are you gonna break my heart?
