Keep Yourself Awake

There's a light under the door, watch it seep through the crack

Keep my body still, but my mind is saying "get back"

Why's it looking at me? Why is it looking at me like that?

Didn't ask for company, now it's locking on me, it's like that

Get under my skin, build a wall to hide behind

You're tearing me up, turning my water into wine

Don't you like my new design?

(God is asleep, so why can't I?)

If I could only get a second to myself

Then maybe I would own what's mine

Step into light, claim the power, take it away

Instead I'm climbing up the walls, taking the fall, and climbing again

See me the way I see myself at night

You'll be safest if you keep yourself awake

It can't be mistaken

The dream is a lie

I'm locked up, full of doubt, tryna figure out

How to haunt somebody in the same way they've freaked me out

I'm a freak, I'm a fraud, I'm afraid

I'll be paralysed forever, keep repeating what I say

When that light inside's not hitting the same

'Cause it's being corrupted by another

I've got a problem – it's nothing like I'm told, motherfucker

If I'm gonna feel alive, I'm gonna feel it alone!

A serpent's tongue on the edge of the blade

I walk this line knowing I'll never be the same

To torture myself through my younger eyes

The dream is a lie

See me the way I see myself at night

You'll be safest if you keep yourself awake

The dream is a lie