I Only Watch Scary Movies

Watching strangers on the subway

Wonder if they feel the same

Can't imagine loving Sundays

I guess I just can't relate

I don't want your lonely company

'Cause I'm not gonna fake a smile for free

The more I laugh I drain my battery

Pushing feelings never been for me

'Cause when it's dark and I'm alone

That's what tends to feel the most like home

It's not hopeless, it's the way I cope

I like the movies where the people die the most

I only watch scary movies

Fantasize about the grave

I don't think jokes are funny

Hugs and kisses bring me pain

I stay inside when it's sunny

I don't dance in the rain

I only watch scary movies

It's not tragic, it's my brain

The patterns are predictable

I've made my peace with feeling miserable

Sometimes it's weaker but it's always there

I'm not saying I don't think it's fair

I'm not accepting defeat if

I don't wanna hear your condescending version of it always gets better

It's not that I just don't believe you

I've been trying but your sympathy is making my head hurt

I'm always hurting but I'm happy this way

Learned how to stay alive since a young age

Don't mean to scare you cause I promise I'll stay

But it's the reason why I'm not afraid

When it's dark and I'm alone

That's what tends to feel the most like home

It's not hopeless, it's the way I cope

I like the movies where the people die the most

I only watch scary movies

Fantasize about the grave

I don't think jokes are funny

Hugs and kisses bring me pain

I stay inside when it's sunny

I don't dance in the rain

I only watch scary movies

It's not tragic, it's my brain