To the Stars

Yeah losing my faith in life

They saying just give it some time

Loading the gun and I'm crying

Telling my dad that I'm fine

Living my life in denial

I'm praying it's all just a dream

I'm praying it's all an illusion and none of it's real

Do you know what I mean?

They tell me that life is so beautiful

If that is the case then tell me why is it that everyday that I wake

Is it getting more difficult

This shit is pitiful and I hate it

Mentally dead everyday I been breaking

Panic attacks on repeat and I'm shaking

Wearing a smile they know that I'm faking

Yeah feeling like I'm just a waste

I don't like seeing my face

I don't like seeing the sun light

It's just a disgrace to the family's name

I'm a disappointment

Gotta get help so I make appointments

Pay by the month like it's unemployment

That's what I'll do for my own enjoyment

I'm

Seen as a low life

Look in my eyes and you don't see no light

Pain in my mind all the demons that I'm gon fight

Kill me inside everyday but I'm alright

Take all these drugs to the face but I won't die

Even if I did yeah I know that they won't cry

I'll be up above looking down at my closed eyes

Flying to the stars cause my death is my soul tie