I've Tried

My body wants purpose

My mind wants to know

My heart has been broken

By things I can't control

Oh, I've tried to let it go

I've tried to let You know

I've tried to relinquish

My idea of control

I feel tossed within waves of pattern

Feeling nurtured by my shadows

When will this break me enough

To make something good

To make something good

This year has felt aimless

Bogged down by my worries

Every emotion feels valid

But I can't decide which ones true

Cause I've tried to take breath

I've tried to find some rest

I've tried to relinquish

My loneliness

I'm obsessed ambiguity

Feeling tortured by my shadows

When will this break me enough

To make something good

To make something good

I could choose to run

Lean into hope and promise

What you started isn't finished

Though it feels undone

I could choose to stay

Linger within the pages

Find solace in the silence

Though it feels undone

I'll find You in the waiting

In broken cathedrals

There is truth in shattered glass

Though it feels undone

Though it feels undone

I've tried to take breath

I've tried to find some rest

I've tried to relinquish

My loneliness