Until It Happens

I wake up freezing

In some stranger's house

In some little corner of some Nordic town

I think of my father

Out plowing the driveway

It's snowing in Boston

All those miles away

For everyday I go

Living my life

Is one day I won't get back when he dies

I should have called him

But I called you instead

You said don't think about it

And went back to bed

So I watched the sunrise

And started to cry

Because I think about it all the time

How do you do it

How do you grow when

You're just so aware that

It's all gonna go?

I live in the midst of

Some future sadness

But it's impossible

Until it happens

There are boats in the harbor

Graves in the graveyard

I feel the weak winter sun on my face

And I picture the lives of

The people I walk by

'Cause I wanna know how it feels in their place

How do you do it

How do you grow when

You're just so aware that

It's all gonna go

I live in the midst of

Some future sadness

But it's impossible

Until it happens

I won't let it happen

Until it happens

Don't let it happen

Before it happens