Deadbeat

I skipped out on my graduation

Cause I hate that place and it's walls

If I could get away with murder

Then I'd smash that fucking place 'till it falls

I'm sitting, snorting lines in the bathroom

Cause I'm tryna rediscover my youth

I'm waiting for my frontal lobe to cross the line

Well I guess that's just life at 22

It's awfully quiet

I'm locked in my bedroom

I wish it didn't feel this content

My friends and my parents

They joke I'm a deadbeat

I wish it was easy to reinvent

Playing Lana Rey while we're making out

Tryna find some purpose again

I throw a knowing smile at a stranger

A stranger I used to call a friend

Can't go a day without a cigarette

Those vices really got a strong grip

If I don't wake from this slumber

Then the whole world will tell that I slipped

It's awfully quiet

I'm locked in my bedroom

I wish it didn't feel this content

My friends and my parents

They joke I'm a deadbeat

I wish it was easy to reinvent

I listen to Pavement

And think I'm a rockstar

When really I'm just a pessimist

I'll put on a brave face

And drink all my sorrows

And act like I don't even give a shit