If I Could Be More Direct (Tbh)

Been thinking about suicide

Seems a little permanent

Arms are crossed, these wings won't fly

I couldn't think to leave just yet

'Cause what's the rush to get to the end?

You've got a little bit more time to spend

You're lacking faith

You'll just wait and pretend

Give me something else to believe in

'Cause I've been looking myself

And I can't seem to find a thing

Been thinkin' about myself

It makes me a little nervous

If I will stay, just time might tell

But I'm not ready to leave just yet

I've always acted like I never cared

But that's a burden that I chose to bear

The steps we take can be so unfair

Give me something else to believe in

'Cause I've been looking myself

And I can't seem to find a thing

Maybe I'll spend time

Just living my life

And take in all of the things in my head

I know that it's fine

Feels different inside

Just like all of the things that you said

Oh, hurry inside

I think I'm going insane

I'll just sit in the back and figure out my brain

Could fantasize

But I don't know where to be

What to see

I think I really should get some sleep

Distant nights

Where my imagination takes me

I feel the cool breeze running thru my hair

As I feel signs of comfort, comfort

I'm out of time

I feel it coming

A singe of darkness under my skin

And I don't know if I can stop it this time

Give me something else to believe in

'Cause I've been looking myself

And I can't seem to find a thing

Wondered how it felt

When I could see through the fumes

And a spark of hope just lit inside of me