The Next Chapter

Ive been planning for this day for a year and a half

A new place for me to go

To start fresh from scratch

No one knows who I am

With my failures and success

Or people that I know back thenSo they make a connect

 I need a place to by myself

Just for once in my life

Instead of hiding for no reason

Like y'all in snow season

This cold world freezing

Got me with no feeling

I was in and out of sorts

Wasn’t seeing before

I'm always plotting revenge

Like a professional sport

The best defense

A good offense

I've done it before

But somehow Hatred always overshadows my heart

Too many two faced situations

Got me on guard

One friend since kindergarten

Best friend from the start

Will never change if life gets busy

Or relationships hard

Were a phone call away

To say what we need to say

Cause we both know that were emotionally scared

A good man can only have a good heart for so long

People ruin it and wonder why right?

It's the ones close to you that hurt you the most

That's the sad reality right

That women love me to my face

Then laugh about me behind my back

How can I put my heart into something

When someone doesn’t give the same back,

Damn

Lotta speculation

Bout the girls that I dated

And how they all ended

The friends that I made

And how they all fade to black

They blame me when it came to that

But drifting apart was always a factor

From burnt bridges

To lack of communication

On both sides

I can't lie

Next time I confront you with things you said behind my back

Don’t change the subject like a bad email

That's How I know the story true

Lining up in detail

Oh well there goes another friendship to shelf

The way their adding up

They be needing the help

But honestly the only person I can trust is myself

So many visions Raven Simone relates

I have dreams I’m holding in that I’m wanting to tell

Too many women black ball me

Want me all to themselves

Too many guys jealous of me

Ruin me for entertainment

No wonder why they are where they are

Fuckin brainless

Lowlifes

Their whole lives

Stay in the darkness bro

With no light

Bringing the ice storm of 25’ to you

So goodnight

When the full moons out

You know the wolf comes out

And all the stories that your telling

Your times run out

I got so many goals that I wanna achieve

My haters wanna put it away

So out of reach

All I wanted was a family

And a house with a white picket fence

If that makes sense

Im working hard at my job

Everyday is intense

I don't ask a lot form you

Just someone I can vent

When I feel like Im an option

I get on the defense

When I’m getting in my head

I really see red

I keep wanting to compromise

But there's too much resentment on my side

I can't let slide

Ya feel me?

I know I gotta make the break

Once and for all

I'm getting out of character

Things are getting scarier

Between you and I

That I saw too much

Too many messages sent

That I know too much

I can't look at your friends

The same way again

I can't look at your family

The same way again

I don't know what was more of a sigh

But honestly I know that it's the end of the line

I'm an author in this story

I erased your name so many times like you never existed

But I think it's best to keep your name there

So I know what to not go back to

Was it harsh

Yeah I meant it

That's how I felt

Disrespected

I’m happier without you

I hope you get int

I'm onto the next chapter

Without you in it.