a letter to beth

From the girl who stood where you now stand

Will it be enough, a taste so bland

Numb to pain, cause time is time

Uptown trains and downtown lies

Did you think it'd work out like you planned

Brought his name to dirt, went on & showed my hand

Our film set love another red affair

Forget his name, oh you can meet me there

Lived a hundred lives- each one better than this

Kick a dog while it's down but honey we were just kids

Too close to the sun now, but he always said

To feel it all before you go to bed

And you're the one he says he'll choose

Through every sleepless night- guess I lose

Now he's yours, but he was mine, oh he's so tough, says he's fine

He'll dry your tears, always end the fight

Could still work out just like you planned

Bring his name to dirt, go on and show your hand

Back of your mind, still our red affair

Forget his name, oh do you dare- oh do you dare?!

Lived a hundred lives and each one better than this

Kick a dog while it's down but honey we were just kids

Too close to the sun now, but he always said

To feel it all before you go to bed

I'm fighter, I'm a martyr, I'm your conversation starter

Looking back on where we fell you know you could've fought harder

Bad and worse, it's there- kept track, laid bare

The death, the hurt, the grief, you cared

He's all yours now, and thank God for that

My final word in this is 'nevermind'

Not for him, just couldn't save you from his lies

He's the worst thing that you and I

Have ever called ours or mine

Melancholy, left that place behind

Mourning, but you know how hard I tried

You chose him, so can't get myself to cry

Live your hundred lives, hope it's better than his

Don't burn the other woman

I was just a kid

Too close to the sun now, but he always said

Just feel it all before you go to bed

And the truth get blurred as all three of us age

The greatest showman turns his red to beige

The bystanders, the witness— all on my same page

But I still think of you, alone on his old stage

Lights go out, the colors fade to gray

I still think of you, and I hope you're okay.