Yo, Curtiss engineered it

Oi, turn me down a tiny bit please

Yeah, cheers, that's good

Sheesh

Learned more from Nipsey, never used the shit I learnt in school

I lost a lot and learned that all I got's my word and balls

If I ain't got my sanity, then what's the point in Mercs and jewels?

Just prayin' they remember me after my curtain call

Medicine an instrumental, therapist my pen and journal

Learned to just jump on a track when God sends a hurdle

Learnt there's shit money can't fix from a kid wanted to

See A.M and then buy a German like Mesut Özil

But money's never bringin' back my nan's memory

And can't bring a man back from the cemеtry

Or free a man from a penitentiary, it's deeper than bars

Maggie nеxt to me, I'm Lisa and Bart

Dream, but I can't sleep, deep, deep in it all

Man, I need to depart to a yard in Bali or Greece

Or a treat that's peaceful and calm

Lackin' harmony and still seein' my people in harm's reach

Missed school, but out of school, learned what it can't teach

Like how to deal with pressure, still learnin' now

I'm tryna use bars to fill plates

Not a gym don, but the kid's strong, so trust me, I'll work it out

I never coulda pictured this, mad the way it's turnin' out

I coulda been a baller, shootin' at the Bernabéu

I coulda been a GM on the block shootin' a burner, baow

Never shot a strap or shot crack, still the hardest

Fuck what you heard, I ain't some sheep with the herdin' crowd

I pray for miracles, I couldn't see or made me cynical

Shit, they were there, but I just thought that God weren't around

Rather be a skint rapper than miserable and affluent

Grew and learned to put my happiness before earnin' pounds

I learnt it's who you know, not what you know

It's true, my bro, you gotta pull strings to hit targets, archery

Partially conflicted from a kid been antisocial

Allow me if I'm off a bit, communicatin's hard for me

I learned when I was younger, like

You can't put your expectations of me on me

I'm me, you feel me?

And that's, you not gon' ever make me feel bad for it

You not gon', you know, make me react to how you reactin' to me

I don't care, I'm me

Look, lessons learnt, I learned to live with regrets

I was fishin' for respect and seen it slip through my net

My mum said, "Go give them as good as you get"

But put a pen in my hand, I'm as good as they get

No lies, there's been mistakes

Some petty beef, but now I'm vegan, I don't miss steak

I got a family to feed, I got a risk take

And I don't take a single bite until my kids ate

When I was younger, I was livin' for the moment

Growin' up, I seen that livin' was the craziest component

Never did I think I'd have to budget on my finance

Luckily for me, my mama gave me plenty guidance

Had to learn a lot and still, I'm learnin' on the way

Now I'm tryna teach my daughter, guess I'm learnin' every day

What to do in situations, tryna tell her what to say

I don't really know myself, but still, I'm tryin' anyway

Guess I've come a long way when I look back

From bein' that young kid with that dotter in his rucksack

In and out of trouble, hidin' baggies in my bus pass

Gettin' coin from brick like Mario without the moustache

Back when I was younger, I had dirty hands

Make a couple phone calls, gather thirty man

But now I'm older, I can't wait around and take a chance

So I'll put money on your head like it's a paid advance

I'm talkin' money upfront, I don't buy if I ain't got it

'Cause I ain't tryna front and stress about it, thinkin', "What if?"

Rappers actin' bougie for the 'Gram, go tell 'em, "Stop it"

This money feel religious, that's why I'm only listenin' to profit

I been on my business too long, opinionated, too strong

Like my money stacked with a big seal, dugong

Time to show them who's wrong, been waitin' on me too long

If you don't like me, get in line, I swear the queue's long