I'm bad at hiding how I feel

Melt into the carpet, please, don't show alarm here

I tried to tell you how it's real

Tell me I'm crazy, no one can love you like me

And as I fall to the floor

I run to the curtains, swallowed by something more than me

I can't stop sweating here

I know I'm dirty, but the water isn't clear

Tell me

I can't, I can't

I'm dirty

Scratch and bleach, it's all the same

I read your message back

Tell me I'm a monster, then I become her

I stumble and I trip

My words are never dainty, swollen, bloated, like me

I can't fit in your space

Mould me into the girl you want to see

But it won't ever stick

I'll never be

Tell me

I can't, I can't

I'm dirty

Scratch and bleach, it's all the same

Reinvent

Turn, turn back the years

Wear all black

But I never learned blending in

I'm unclean

Don't compare me

You never taught this whole thing to me