Yo, listen

No degree but I been tested

Pain in my heart that I kept in

Went from all smiles like a dentist

To an ambulance, alone with a deathwish

I was tellin jokes to the paramedic

She told me her son was a menace

I wanted to tell her to hold him tight coz it gets so cold in the trenches

I wanted to say never get so busy that all your love goes away

I wanted to say never get so far that you don't hear the songs that he makes

And all of the pain that he hides, keep asking about his day

I wanted to tell her don't leave him alone, cos I'm here and it's way too late

My heartbeat hit like a hi-hat

My kidneys dry like I fried dat

200 doses, prescription pills, how the fuck I survive that

Not an ounce of fear in my heart

At peace, about to depart

A piece of me died that night, that starvin kid he got left in the dark

Had to leave him dead and buried, God told me he don't see cemetaries

Dunno how I could go on the run, life's barely begun, and I just wasn't ready

Disqualified, false start

Can't drive when the gear's in park

Find a way to endure the days of pain cos life is a work of art

I think I'm addicted to crashin out for the times that I got neglected

For the times they wasn't attentive, desperate

For some deeper affection

Instead, I got independent and blended, I'm a great pretender

Until I couldn't recognise that darker side that I had embedded

And I used to hate feelin so different

But tell me what's better than this

Who else' gonna hold this gift

It's in my hands I control this shit

So I'm puttin the pen to the paper

And I'm lettin the ink just dribble

Done tryna keep it simple

I'm writin my story in scribbles