Looking Up

Comin’ up around the corner of the final lap

Through the race I faced forward never looking back

Focus on the track

This is where I’m at

Can I rewind all the caps I mistook for fact?

Maybe I would have the time if I took it back

 

Growing up, my father was on his boss shit

Mom raised the kids, he was always in the office

Wins over losses, tryna make a profit

Give it to the offspring, all they ever wanted

Never had no problems, never broke a promise

Taught us that being a man is being honest

Well here goes,

I’m grateful for your work and the house it bought us

I’m glad that you taught us music cause it brought us

Life and taught me how to turn my strife into a concert

I’m thirty and I’m feeling there’s more I should accomplish

It hurts me and I’m trying to affect whatever caused it

Started making drama with mama when I was nine

Throwing fits up all the time, my brother was my accomplice

Papa on the grind, he was coming home exhausted

I think I wanted more of a father figure to bond with

I’m looking up

I’m starting to see

The light that’s been reflecting on me

I’m good enough

I’m starting to free

My mind from what’s expected

So even though I’m on stage and I’m getting the clout

I’m still full of self-doubt, tryna figure it out

Reconfigure the route

I’m ice cold cause you told me that’s what winner about

And so I shine like a diamond

Never satisfied with myself

So there’s always a reason to keep grinding

Still I find it hard believing what’s on my mind

Fighting demons all the time

Though my dreams is realized it’s hard

  

I doubt you’re proud that I’m an artist

Cause you never said it out loud and so I wonder

Each negative comment repeated like a mantra

Bad energy nested deep in my subconscious

I still feel proud that you’re my father

Regardless of judgement Imma do it in your honor

Father, I hope you’re looking at your son

Just as proud as I am of the person I’ve become

I’m looking up (damn right)

I’m starting to see

The light that’s been reflecting on me

I’m good enough (yeah I’m good enough)

I’m starting to free

My mind from what’s expected of me

Comin’ up around the corner of the final lap,

Through the race I faced forward never looking back.

Never took a nap

Would you look at that

I stopped following the rules like a bureaucrat

Unlearned what has gotten me confused

Every blunt I ever burned got me further from the truth

No stone unturned, I was howling at the moon

Now I’m learning I can move with a purpose and it’s true

I can open up the curtain, see the sun is shining through

Aha

Ain’t the same (3x)

I finally found that I’m free

Aha

I done changed (3x)

I think I’m finally me

Aha

Found my way (3x)

No longer blinded I see

Aha

I’m okay (4x)