Safe Now

Safe now

I ran to you when I was just

A young twenty-two

I felt so far from myself

Caught up in our mutual Hell

Safe now

I came of age

With a darkness deeply

Embedded in my cells

I didn't want to be well

And I can't run forever

But I can't stay still together

You are the last person I'd be

And yet still the last person I'd leave

Until faced with the dark

Our dark

Faced with the dark

My dark

Safe now

I tried to flee

When I was just twenty-three

I packed my bills in a box

I booked a tour then I stopped

Safe now

Communicating with you indefinitely

You called me every hour

Tried to crush me like a flower

But I can't run forever

But I can't stay stuck together

You are the last person I'd be

And yet still the last person I'd leave

Unless faced with the dark

Our dark

Faced with the dark

My dark

And I thought I told you

Where i was going in my mind

I got to New Mexico

And you finally had me on the line

I said, "it's over. I'm never going back to what that was."

You said, "I'd guessed it when you weren't returning all my calls."

And I heard humanity in your voice for the first time

And I hadn't heard you through all the noise in a long time

We laughed

You cried

Train tracks on all sides

The night

We died

Safe now

I got to Cali

Decided I'd live in the Valley

I had it all worked out

I wouldn't mind the drought

Safe now

Then I met another

Much like you, obsessed with his mother

Then I was hooked on him

Codependence begins again