aging without maturing.

Trip and fall like we some dominoes

I'm not welcome so I gotta go

I'm moving freely, mama told me be me God will always see me

I've been moving deer in headlights tryna get my head right

Verses like scriptures, these lessons biblical, you damn right

48 laws, they do apply, I've been abiding

Cut like a saw, this pain forever but I'm thriving

Brother was my inspiration, parents couldn't be there

Lost with emotion but physically I always see them

We learn from each other and one another shit I need air

I drown in confusion and deep anxiety, it's not fair

It's not fair, I'm all alone in the struggle

I see the ceiling falling down as it crumbles

I'm always last in the race cause I stumble

How I'm supposed to do this all alone, I'm only 12

Combined with all the bullies, they just make my life a hell

These formative years, I lack support and mental health

I'm forming a fear of loneliness, it's like a spell

Like since the age of 14, I've always had a crutch

I always had a shorty on my side, it ain't enough

Remember I was 16 when smoking on a Dutch

I try to feel something because my tank is out of love

But then I turned 18 and said I'm grown now

Making decisions without precision made me fall out

Took 20 years for me to cherish what my parents did for me

They sacrificed money and luxury so I succeed

Stumbled on some love, I took a chance, my heart is growing

I got my shit together, I'm better, I hope they see me

I got like 2 degrees at 22, my boy I'm eating

I'm reaching for the top of the world, I broke the ceiling

When you're back against the wall

And there ain't no one to call

I'm calling me

When you're back against the wall

And there ain't no one to call

I'm calling me