Now I am alone

I cry to much

even when I'm not sad

I am to loud

at least thats what he said

I'm not the girl

he wanted me to be

and now i'm sitting here

a collection of bad memories

and now i'm alone

don't want to bother anyone

with to much of the pain

that I cant ignore

and now I'm quiet

as quiet as I can be

But I still cry to much

but only of no one sees it

and now im alone

always at home

gazing at the walls

or my phone

protected from a world

that i can't control

my days always the same

it's better than the pain

of always being too much

monday is the day to plan

tuesday my motivation ends

and image of an entire generation well

I don't have the boundaries

i'm soaking up my surroundings

and now i'm alone

isolation means control

so I guess i'm staying home