I'll be running on fumes til' the day lights

I don't truly wake until it's midnight

Baby please don't let me out your eyeline

Maybe looking back on the timeline, hindsight

For as long as I remember I've hated closing my eyelids

Terrified of falling asleep don't want to know how fucked up my mind is

Am I scared of I'll see? Even when I dream I see the things I won't achieve

So until I wake my heartbeat cries and my tears all bleed

Even when I dream I don't feel love

I don't believe in, Don't believe in

Feeling won't leave

Things I could be

Blinded can't see

All the things I was taught since I was a child

I don't believe in, don't believe anymore

In happy ever after

What do I do when I'm only half-present?

Every time I wake it further dulls all my senses

All this destruction feels like a war

I'm never living, no not like before

My grip on reality is weak

But I don't want to lose touch like the top my my phone screen

Too often I'm lost in

Too much of nothing

My head's going dumb

and my heart's going numb

Hiding in plain sight

Just like the horizon

Fighting vs something to prove

That I'm not nothing

I'll be running on fumes til' the day lights

I don't truly wake until it's midnight

Baby please don't let me out your eyeline

Maybe looking back on the timeline, hindsight

For as long as I remember I've hated closing my eyelids

Terrified of falling asleep don't want to know how fucked up my mind is

Am I scared of I'll see? Even when I dream I see the things I won't achieve

So until I wake my heartbeat cries and my tears all bleed

If I close my eyes, baby I won't die

But still fight with my thoughts all through the night

See all of the things I won't achieve

When I fall asleep I don't want to be me

(Leave me alone, just leave me the fuck alone)

Get the fuck out of my head

(Get the fuck out of my head)

If I'm not well, leave me for dead

Who the fuck knows why I'm even trying

I mean after all time would it be alright to leave it like this?

Won't live like this

So fuck it if I lose imma fight it, fight it, Imma fight it

I'll only stop the fight until I'm shaking hands with death

As long as I'm still drawing breath

I'll be running on fumes til' the day lights

I don't truly wake until it's midnight

Baby please don't let me out your eyeline

Maybe looking back on the timeline, hindsight

For as long as I remember I've hated closing my eyelids

Terrified of falling asleep don't want to know how fucked up my mind is

Am I scared of I'll see? Even when I dream I see the things I won't achieve

So until I wake my heartbeat cries and my tears all bleed