Figured out

Let’s write another page

These awkward feelings I can’t shake

Rewrite the lines to make some sense

Scratch out the ink and turn away

If only

We had it oh so figured out

If only

There was never doubt

Tonight we’ll drown in vanity

And think of what it means to be alive

Keep secret’s safe, it’s just as well

They’re just these lies we’ll never tell

Maybe I’ll feel better when we face

These awkward feelings we can’t shake

I always make the same mistakes

We dissolve by design

No permanence to define

The doctor said you’ll be just fine but you’re still bleeding out

If only we didn’t have to make amends

But these words aren’t enough, there’s nothing left to defend

Tonight we’ll drown in vanity

And think of what it means to be alive

Keep secret’s safe, it’s just as well

They’re just these lies we’ll never tell

Maybe I’ll feel better when we face

These awkward feelings we can’t shake

I always make the same mistakes

Life is more than a collage of metaphors and lies

Dizzying displays of formal attire built up on some sick sense of security

It’s a means to fill some sort of void we’ve built over time.

But years get shorter and blend together until we become the thing we feared the most

I won’t

A tremble, a stutter, a quivering voice

So are we making a difference or was there even a choice?

I guess we’ll learn to live without

Tonight we’ll drown in vanity

And think of what it means to be alive

Keep secret’s safe, it’s just as well

They’re just these lies we’ll never tell

Maybe I’ll feel better when we face

These awkward feelings we can’t shake

I always make the same mistakes

And when we remove the doubt, you’re breathing in (you’re breathing in) and I’m bleeding out