Shit getting Tricky

Yeah

Im too pretentious

It's never new I mentioned

Looking back on freshman year they tried to lose my mentions

Shining through the fence

Im tense

Hiding through the mask

The tension of my skin and bones hit me like a flash

Drinking through the flask

Unethical way of handling things I lost

I never knew the cost, I never lost my ball

And now im appalled, and the shit goes unsolved

Scattering through my brain, thinking im BRAY

He one of the only ones that I can tell anything

So what I get misleaded **** I been mistreated

You can't see the things I seen and have no resolve

The passion in my words should be in the vault

Or maybe a museum, **** you gon fear him

And you for sure gonna hear him

I stay testing myself to make sure im on track

Never lack

Emphasizing things that had me on my back

They never paid me back

And now they try to dap me up like I forgot the facts

Fuck out my face

**** don't know who he approaching

He think he won the race

Underwhelmed I'd say

Infiltrate his heart with fear

The worst kind of date

But im shooting like KD from the trey

It's cause im too consistent

This new era im entering got me contemplating

What im tryna be in life, im only 17

It got me thinking bout my moms, look at the boy she raised

All the problems that I caused, hope she forgives me I pray

1 minute on the clock until her birthday over

She getting older and im scared that if she goes

Then ill lose my sober, cause im already slippin

Smoking weed, getting high that's a lot less closure

Never resort to substances when you dealing with grief

You messing up your teeth, fucking up your lease

Instead you gotta feast, unlock the beast

Before you trip and fall over your own feet

Reap what you sow and claim your name

Cause if the doorbell ring when it's too late

You'll repent for your days, liquor making pain fade away

It's only temporary

Riding the ferris through traffic

Wheeling around **** think im making magic

In reality im passing my passion

Showing my songs to the world, even though they don't listen

They can't see the vison, so I won't force em

Uplifting my energy, it's surging through my veins

I'm in the gym getting gains

She on the

Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, Nah, not yet

She on the phone gaining pain

It's cause she could never leave

Relationship full of poison, like the ivy leaf

It's striking like a villain, acting like we joking

No emotion, psychopath like, just fucking for the motion

Tryna get a reaction, shot down like some dreams on the tractor

I feel it running through, unspoken rule

If im winning then my bros winning too

Even though **** can't follow

Not won't, the psyche in their brain

Sliming ya mans out for temporary gain

What will you claim

You won't attain fame

Your name won't rise on the spectrum

You still the same ****, making plays for the fandom

But they don't even cheer, you think you funny making fun of your peer

It's truly your fear, to be on the receiving end of a joke

All of a sudden he not claiming the words he spoke

I can't stand it

Show up to school as the class clown

Second his foot touches his door

He put on a frown, and that's the way that it go

Be yourself, trust your heart and allow yourself to just flow

Excuse me

Im getting off the topic

This supposed to be about me

Not the ones with no profit

That's my problem

I hold too many grudges

**** who wronged me don't stay on my mind

But when I see em, all of the memories shine

Anger fueling through my eyes

I can cut anybody off, don't matter the person

Even though I love her, my granny could serve it

That's just how I am, and I know it's a problem

But because im pretentious, I know I can't solve it

At least not right now

Maybe 10 years down the line, when i healed a little

I'll forgive my enemies, including my father

He want the best for me, want me to go farther

Cause he know that im already a better man than him

His wrongs taught me that

Let me get back on track, remember how to rap

Sometimes I cap on the track, I ain't proud of it

I'm human, I make mistakes, **** never taught you that

Lessons need to be learned, but I ain't no teacher

Some stuff gotta be learned on your own

Just like the word of a preacher

Funny that I say the thing, I been distant from God all year long

I feel like he don't remember my name