If it's too much I get,

But you know Van Gogh started painting at 27

You're 27 right now

He died at 37

And who knows

What if Vincent Van Gogh made it to 38

Have you really doubted whether you'd make it

And I'm not talking about being successful and famous

I'm talking bout like next week

Shit

Those weeks be my best weeks

Start moving with a different drive

Hydroplane as I slip and slide

The engine fried

But even if I crash

Bitch ima hitch a ride

Desensitized and energized

They say that it's unhealthy I know

How the fuck I be the sickest

If I cannot do what's ill advised

Now ain't that fascinating

I don't ask for admiration

But can't feel worthy of love

Unless I reach my aspirations

Take it back to basics

Who needs love anyways?

Not me

I don't give a fuck

In fact I'd rather masturbation

Cause all this shit be rubbing me the wrong way

Don't ask me how I'm doing well just know it's been a long day

A long week

Some long years

Some long years

My momma call sense it and I can't fake

She ask me how I'm doing I just say

It's been a long day

A long week

Some long years

Some long years

Some days it's hard to even pinpoint the issue

In the ring with depression

Shit you never know when it hit you

You never know how shit can permeate

Curse of fate

Since my birth of place

Late bloom since the womb

My momma said that she was 28

Discovered the truth at 20

Man this shits still hard to speak about

She always felt so young but when my brother passed

Her knees gave out

Started asking questions to the doctor at the check in

Did the math I lost 10 years with my mom in less than a second

Fuck

Tryna get it but there's no time

Everybody say there's more time

Everybody see the gold mine

Maybe in your eyes

Forget about a contract I don't see no signs

I don't see nothing

All of yall bluffing

Making assumptions

Gotta get done shit

I'm in that dungeon

Working with one fist

Losing my grip better hope that I clutch this

Greatest

Know that I could the greatest

Never late is better

Better late than never

I'm just tryna be the latest

Give me accolades and put me in the pages

Shit I had to face it

I was too complacent

How long was I waiting?

Now I gotta make it

Tell me I'm impatient

Shit you better save it or else I'll be saying

Fuck that

Fuck you

Fuck them and fuck this

Do I look like Vladimir Putin do not tell me that I'm Russian

I've been doing this since way back

Now I'm pressed check the playback

Cause the longer this shit take for me

The more I'm tryna take back

Uh

Everyday I be terrified of the pearly gates

Since my birth of place I've been trying to break this curse of fate

Ask why I'm impatient my anxiety just permeates

Was 20 when I found out my momma had me at 38

Give credit to yourself

Thank you mom

You know?

Nothing has a specific date

oh this is the date I have to have it done

I feel very good

I said ooh that's the boy who's going to do something

You know?

You are going to be successful

Really think you are already successful

Anybody will see the passion the love you have

I have see lot of musicians really I mean in my lifetime

But not because you're my son

Because you are doing something really you like

And what if it doesn't work out

What in the heck

You will find some job

You will do something

But you're doing your best to do what you like

What you love

You know challenges will come in life

Life is full of challenges

Life is full of challenges

For everyone

Yeah

So you should be very proud of yourself you know

I'm very proud of you

And you should be very proud of yourself

Hi Gautam, happy 27th birthday

All the best