This is what it is, my life's a bitch in a disguise

People judge me, but they've never seen the struggle through my eyes

I sit and wonder maybe things'll be better if I was gone

My mother's face comes to my mind, I know I can't leave her alone

Is it the dro that fills my head up with depression?

It's hard to cry, or to flex, since I

Was 9 I've been seein' my people die

Become the victim of a drug habit or a .45

Plus crooked cops and homies make it harder to survive

I can't stand bein' broke, I try to cope with sellin' work

To get caught up, spend money on bonds

Somebody tell me what it's worth

The other half go to a lawyer so he can go to court and lie

I just wanna make a dollar, I don't brag about sellin' pies

My OG's taught me never let nobody know what you got

And if it ain't for the good, ain't no need in touchin' the block

Now will I die a man or a stressed out bum?

Crook on the run, flashin' my gun, afraid to laugh at his son

Uh, yeah

Only if they knew, what a **** capable to do

Huh, I done lost my mind

For them **** talkin' mean, hard to find

Motherfuck the laws

Aggravatin' **** worse than ever before

And shit only gets worse

I'm wonderin' if I'ma be the next one in a hearse

But I doubt that there

Givin' boys a fair warnin', be aware

Day after another, it's a never-endin' struggle

And even though I'm doin' much better

From when I was brought up in the gutter

In the ghetto, it's a never-endin' cycle

**** losin' they life daily, it's what the crazy livin' life do

I'm relaxin' but a lot of **** lookin' at me funny

Bitch, I'm just like you, but instead, my mind is on my money

'Stead of hatin', you should be concentratin'

On gettin' your shit straight

Pussy **** breakin' windows, now we just talkin' 'bout bitch-made

Instead of beatin' my face, you catch my cards slippin', bitch

Now close your eyes, and picture me flippin'

A real gangsta ass **** respects the people

And checks himself when he thinkin' raw

****, all I do is just help myself and I pray to God

Ask Him for forgiveness, He knows it's hard

I don't really wanna murder nobody, but fuck a murder charge

I'll leave them **** in the dirt if they fuck around

Them **** know that Trinity gon' be quick to buck 'em down

They love my sound, ****, play it on your stereo

****, now listen while we blowin' on this Harry Joe

Uh, yeah

Only if they knew, what a **** capable to do

Huh, I done lost my mind

For them **** talkin' mean, hard to find

Motherfuck the laws

Aggravatin' **** worse than ever before

And shit only gets worse

I'm wonderin' if I'ma be the next one in a hearse

But I doubt that there

Givin' boys a fair warnin', be aware

I'm missin' my lil' brother, I just wanna see him free

It brings me down to read his letters

God help my brother to keep his peace

My heart is full of misery, I have difficulty breathin'

It all started when we had to bury my dogs Adam and Steven

Now I'm forever agg', look how the world got me

Try your hardest but you will never be for real about me

Or know when you do my people in the same way

That F-A-M or F-T-L-A with the gang play

I've lost myself, I take in handlebars and ecstasy

I walked alone and talked as if my dog was next to me

I know I'm not livin' right 'cause it's always somethin' wrong

Stress got me takin' fifths of Hennessy to the dome

I try but every time I do, I have a tendency to fail

I go to court tomorrow, will I be free or in a cell?

Mama said, "With God by your side, no one can touch you"

I guess that's why these haters fallin' every time they rush you

Uh, yeah

Only if they knew, what a **** capable to do

Huh, I done lost my mind

For them **** talkin' mean, hard to find

Motherfuck the laws

Aggravatin' **** worse than ever before

And shit only gets worse

Only if they knew