I'm not okay

I can't find stability

I'm not okay

I can't find stability

Spreading through my veins with the needles aimed down

Putting it all together and then tearing it apart

Throwing away the scraps and trying to restart

Go back to the days when it was sunny and clear

My soul soared until it stopped trying to shine

Settled for hazy messages from a black sky

I still don't know why, know why

No question I threw up, came back

I don't know why

Is this what I wanted to be?

A restless soul wrestling with what I believe

Or just a selfish soul blind to problems that tower over me

That tower over me

I'll fade out

Sun, burn and stay out

Clouds close like an hour

Round, last light and sound

Don't bother, save your breath

Could be the last you get

Am I jaded to the point where I can't see

The warmth, the beauty, your hands, feet

The world surrounding me

I'm scared of what has come and what is to be

I haven't died

The earth will cover me