Could have been a doctor if I really cared enough

But I didn't have it in me

I got distracted by a bunch of stuff

I'm so stupid and empty

My mind just wasn't in it

And neither was my heart

And the drive was a lie to myself from the god damned start

It's funny how for years I kept trying

Laughed at all the fears that I'd been hiding

Took me a while to see that it didn't matter that much to me

'Cause I think you're so cool

I didn't wanna go away to dental school

I don't care about anything as much as I used to

I don't care about anything as much as I used to

I don't care about anything as much as I used to

Except maybe you

I wanna give up

I wanna give up

I don't wanna try no more

I wanna stop all these pathetic attempts and saving this shipwreck

Swim right out the door

Before it sinks with a fraction of what's left of my dignity

I swept so many failed tests under carpets

Deep down I knew this is not what I wanted (not what I wanted)

I don't care about anything as much as I used to

I don't care about anything as much as I used to

I don't care about anything as much as I used to

Except maybe you

And I still feel just about as dumb as I used to

I still feel just about as dumb as I used to

I still feel just about as dumb as I used to (as dumb as I used to)

I didn't wanna go, but the rejection still kind of hurt

Not as much as the one from you though

That one hurt way worse

That one hurt way worse

That one hurt way worse

I kept thinking things would get easier

I kept thinking I'd get better

I'm not basing my intelligence on some fucking letters

And now that it's over I did what I was told I had to do

But I still feel just about as dumb as I used to

I still feel just about as dumb as I used to

I don't care about anything as much as I used to