Fuck this, I don't even know what to say

I've been trying to write this shit for days

Forcing myself to reinforce the positivity to distract myself from all these fucking thoughts in my brain

This depression's had an overstay

I can't keep smoking days away

I can't keep watching time decay

Letting this shit push my girl away

Man, that's fucking insane

Grandma just tell me "Sit down and pray, let him show you the way"

But who the fuck is God? Man, I don't even believe myself

Staring at that whiskey on the shelf but I know that shit won't help

I said "who the fuck is God?" Man, I don't even believe in myself

Staring at that .45, wanna cock it back, I'm scared that might help

When I was younger I never thought I'd see myself in this position

When you as numb as me, it don't matter who the fuck you missing

Your momma, daddy & friends gone missing

Everything just feels so different

So hard to accept that they might not fit within the vision but I still have faith...

I still have faith

I still have faith

I still have faith

That there are ways to stop the ache, I just can't down another 1/8th

This is my attempt to put my pain in it's place and replace it with confidence if I can find the space

How much more can I take? Bent up, really hoping I don't break

I just need to stop the ache, I just can't down another 1/8th

This is my attempt to put my pain in it's place and replace it with confidence if I can find the space

Put everybody else above me, myself is the only person I've betrayed

This ain't Sha, who the fuck have I portrayed?

Tell that mother fucker that I'd like to smile again one day

Really, I got a lot to say, so I had to put my life up on display

I don't remember how to appreciate those good days

My attitude has changed

I just can't seem to break away

How can I end this fucking pain?

I feel a constant disarray

Don't listen to the voices, Sha

I know it's hard to disobey

End it all

Make the fucking self-doubt go away

Where the fuck do you go when you can't run away?

I don't really know the play

I just take it day to day

Floating through time, lost in a cloud of anxiety

So stuck in the moment, wish someone would just show a sign to me

'Cause I don't know what but I'm in desperate need of something

It's like every time I get up on my feet I just can't stop stumbling

There are times when I dry my eyes just so you won't know

All these years I've shed tears have watered the seeds, now it's time to grow

'Cause I still have faith...

I still have faith

I still have faith

I still have faith

That there are ways to stop the ache, I just can't down another 1/8th

This is my attempt to put my pain in it's place and replace it with confidence if I can find the space

How much more can I take? Bent up, really hoping I don't break

I just need to stop the ache, I just can't down another 1/8th

This is my attempt to put my pain in it's place and replace it with confidence if I can find the space