Up in Smokes

The sun's peaking into my room Smoky thoughts are my alarm Haven't even started the day yet I already want it to be done I ain't livin' life to the fullest No baby, I'm just gettin' through Numbing my brain to stop feeling insane Well it's just one, two, three and I'm up in smokes I meet my friends down at the bar They talk about those good old days I drink down my sweet, sweet poison And feel myself float away I'm not trying to be someone Who always lets the rain right in I don't wanna cry and I'm too stubborn to die So it's just one, two, three and I'm up in smokes I'm hiding in bathrooms I'm breathing out windows Always looking for an escape Sneaking down hallways Locking everything in Always trying to get away I feel my throat getting tighter Getting too dry for me to shout Part of me wants to climb back up And the other part doesn't want to come out I look out of my windows White knuckles grip the screen Wish I could be happy and carefree But instead it's just one, two, three and I'm up in smokes I'll tell ya baby, they'll never be Enough smoke for me