Screaming alone I want to be at home

No ears to fall upon

My heart screams for more

But nothing can break through it's walls

Invisible, miserable

All in all fucking pitiful

A needle in a haystack

When did I become so cynical

Back again my old friend

I can't say it's nice to see your face I'm afraid

I should have known you were coming

When my chest went cold and all my thoughts were numbing

Waking up but never wanting to be awake

Breaking down and all I can think is how much I need a break

From this life, from this god-damn burden

That is haunting me

Well I remember a time when I used to feel alive

The skies were bright and I didn't have to hide

The birds they were singing my life it was gleaming

A feeling of something-ness today feels so fleeting

Well John and Jane Doe they've abandoned their throne

Throw down the gauntlet

And I'm cursed with the unknown

My body's growing weary and my eyes are closing shut

I just can't seem stop these feelings

I feel betrayed by my very own mind I'm not seeking forgiveness

I know I don't deserve it

I'm not seeking forgiveness I know I don't deserve it

But I'm searching for meaning

For a feeling of purpose

Something to save my soul

From this hangman's noose

I'm not seeking forgiveness

I know I don't deserve it

I'll be forever in sorrow

For what I've done to me

For what I've done to me

For what I've done to me