I'm still weighing my worth against your words

I'm falling in and out. I can't decide what's worse

That I'm forgetting your face, a small piece every day

Or that I'm constantly worn thin by these memories

I'm finding myself more and more at fault in each and every way

I'm punishing myself the best I can. I'll let the pain become part of me

Every moment is a lifetime, every memory a lifeline without you here

As I slipped into your skin, I slid out of mine

I've been trying to find reason to believe that you'll come home

It's apparent that this wasn't perfect; maybe we were never meant

But that doesn't make it easier to justify all the time and emotion spent

I'm sick of waking up here without you

I can't get your bitter taste out of my mouth

You're digging down deep inside me

I'm scratching at my skin to get you out

I'll keep digging at this gravesite, night after night

Looking for what you buried here under your waning moon

Maybe I'll find my body where you left it, and with time I could collect it

But for now I'll stay here, trying to find a way back to you

Is this what I deserve? Take back every angry word

Bled out night after night, with no reprieve in sight

Tonight, I'll lie awake and shake with rage

I need escape but I can't break loose

Can't justify the pain. I'm burning memories of you

Clocks turning backward. With no sense of bearing, I can't move forward

I don't feel human anymore