I'm ready to self destruct, will you hold me, please?

I don't wanna do this, but I'm taking you with me

Lost thoughts in my head, I might slip up again

I might say the wrong thing, I wish it was the end

The reaper is reaching, my life force is leaking

I'm shaking and freaking out cause I know you don't need me

You promised that you'd never leave me, I told you this wouldn't be easy

I gave you my heart, when you gave it back, it wasn't beating

Now I'm dead again, putting my faith in the meds again

Taking whatever they recommend, I need a stronger sedative

Don't even ask, I'm not alright, I really do not wanna fight

No, not tonight, I would rather die

Than to live in this world with the way that I feel

I miss the old days, when everything was okay

Why can't I be okay? Why can't I just feel good?

Slipping back to old ways just to fucking feel good

I'm a fucking waste of space, never did a thing good

Music is the only way I can let this shit out

I don't like to open up, it's not like you can help out

I tried to let a person in, look how that shit turned out

Fucking up my lungs again, smoke until I burn out

Lesson wasn't learned before, my lesson won't be learned now

I'm ready to self destruct, will you hold me, please?

I don't wanna do this, but I'm taking you with me