Hook:

I am just another one

I am just a mothers son

Sitting in this empty room

My only friends a loaded gun

Verse 1:

And now i finally see that see that none of this was worth it and the possibilities and the fact that I have purpose I stopped believing yesterday its time that I was away the surface cause its hella grey

Fuck that man time just needs to roll back and take me to the days when my life it wasn't so crap and take me to the days when every second I was smiling because every second nowadays inside my head I'm crying

I am dying every breath I take, drowning in an open lake

I'm happy when I'm sleeping but I'm awake and that's my mistake

I'm happy still believing because now my life's at stake I haven't had sex for some months Im too depressed to masturbate

Hook:

I am just another one

I am just a mothers son

Sitting in this empty room

My only friends a loaded gun

Verse 2:

I decide to sleep all day and my brain it only likes to go fast during the night. But the night is when all those devils and the demons they just creep into my head and I question all my reasons and now I think that I am dreaming but this seems to real

Maybe I just need to find a couple more pills

Maybe I just need to finally pull it together cause right now I am feeling like a bird losing its feathers but..

I know Im better than this, I know that my life is full of potential, but I am afraid now that as I get older I'm losing my balance and life is not gentle and life isn't equal I wanna be rich but life is not beautiful life is a bitch

So why the fuck now am i losing all hope

If i lose control now then I am a joke

And that cannot happen and i need to prove to myself what the fuck i am worth and prove to myself that I'm better than the person who I used to be cause that fuckign person to me was a curse

Listen to me when i say what im saying im spittin the truth and your praying im playing

No flipping a coin let me finish my joint then i'll pick up this pistol click the safety off and point