I’m sick of the cliches you say stay in your own lane but I drive drunk

I see bliss in a weird way happiness in dark times and I like lust

Women and commitment shit I veer stray cause I spite trust

Every promise I make is a sheer sized lie that you just bite up

I can deface, go silence of the lamb on any emcee that I decides sucks

You gonna need a priest cause i’ve been told no like way too much

I’ve been slept on like way too much

I’ve been fucked over like way too much

That’s why I’m a bully on the mic like the kids in school who would take my lunch

Beat my ass and hate my guts

See my past as a lesson I’m supposed to learn

A lesson that I’m suppose to past like math class but with both I didn’t pass I flunked

Almost went to class with a galley gun

Almost OD’d just last month cause I’m sick of all the pressure this music brings

“Nevv you gotta best get better with each new release”

But I still get depressed over usual things

I suck with money but I still do invest every penny in myself

Put my money where my mouth is to redirect what my future brings

I’ve took your shit and I washed it down with your sewer water

I speak from the heart man my truest calling

I write about shit that I’ve actually lived I don’t write these songs just to hoot and holla

I wish I could achieve what I feels missing but there’s some things I can’t change

And I wish I coulda done something’s different but with that I have no say

Only lord knows every chance I’ve had and every chance that I would waste

So when I talk to god man he doesn’t answer but I still do try to pray

And I still do try to write my wrongs even if they stay the same

But there’s some things I can’t change

No there’s some things I can’t change

And only I know how much I’ve lost but some things don’t remain

Cause there’s some things I can’t change

No there’s some things I can’t change

I wish, my dad, never saw me in some handcuffs

And I wish, I had, a chance to meet both my grandpas

And I know, I am, not the easiest to deal with

Wish that my sister and I never fought so much, wish my momma could see that

Just because I wrote the song scars

Doesn’t mean I hate a single person

Doesn’t mean I wanna bombard

My family tree and try to even circum

Stances I would love to try to get back

Relationship that I would love to redact

Wish I never did wish I never please

Lord forgive me for my hatred

This hateful force within me

It’s just pains me sore for the lack of support I’m getting

They say grab the bull by the horns even if it’s Saintins horns I’m gripping

What you take me for some poor and wimpy

Fucking rapper chump that doesn’t have enough to try to flash or stunt and can’t afford a ten speed

Ordinary

Is not what I am

Im stuck in my past

I’m in this guilt trip like Barbra Streisand

The weight of this world is all in my hands

I wish I had someone to lean on

Wish nobody could see me like I’m John Cena

I’ve been a cheater

Cupid has turned his own back no one will listen and no one will love me not even Athena

That is the reason why I keep on singing

I keep on rapping bout tragedies love and disparity cause

When my back is push against the ropes it is me, myself, are the only ones I will believe in

I wish I could achieve what I feels missing but there’s some things I can’t change

And I wish I coulda done something’s different but with that I have no say

Only lord knows every chance I’ve had and every chance that I would waste

So when I talk to god man he doesn’t answer but I still do try to pray

And I still do try to write my wrongs even if they stay the same

But there’s some things I can’t change

No there’s some things I can’t change

And only I know how much I’ve lost but some things don’t remain

Cause there’s some things I can’t change

No there’s some things I can’t change