Cold sweat

Chill in the air, heat in my chest

I'd been

Chained to my bed

Weighed down by all of the consequences of sleeping with him

The ghost in my head

I know you struggled with my decisions, my reactions,

and all the mindless things I did

To fill the void, to heal the pain

To put the anxious thoughts to rest

And this is not the way I thought that my life would turn out to be

But it's fine

Came crawling to you

When my knees were bruised

Tears glued to my eyes

It's easy to choose

To make an excuse

Blood is not for life

We met

When I was out, out on the edge

Deep end

Living alone, lost all of my friends

Pale skin, I am the shell of who I was

Glad that we met, or I might be dead

I know you struggled with my decisions, my refusal

to take my life into my hands

My admittance, and all the anger sitting right inside my chest

And this is not the way I thought that my life would turn out to be

But it's fine

Came crawling to you

When my knees were bruised

Tears glued to my eyes

It's easy to choose

To make an excuse

Blood is not for life

My lips could not speak

I struggled to breathe

I was bones and blood

You saw all of me

While wearing my grief

I was so far gone

I can fight this, I can fight this

I can fight this to the death

I am hopeless, I am hopeless

I'm afraid that this won't end

No no no

Came crawling to you

When my knees were bruised

Tears glued to my eyes

It's easy to choose

To make an excuse

Blood is not for life

My lips could not speak

I struggled to breathe

I was bones and blood

You saw all of me

While wearing my grief

I was so far gone